Stock Up

One of my favorite blogs The Daybook has down this and she got the inspiration from another blog and I wanted to do it. 

Making :  memories with my mom and sisters. I love cooking with them on the holidays and everyday.

Cooking : the stuffing that won my dad's heart over once upon a time when my parents were dating. 
Drinking : Ginger Ale-it's my favorite what can I say. 
Reading : The Book Theif- my sister got me hooked
Wanting :  Someone to cuddle with. The cold weather drives this desire and I'm missing the days of my little brother who would gladly cuddle with me, he's become resistant. 
Looking: at the gorgeous woodpeckers that come to my house to eat berries on the deck.  
Playing:  Dots-I'm addicted to the game.
Wasting: money on the people I love. The holiday's make me feel kind of better about spending money because I'm not spending it on myself. 
Sewing: nothing but making plans to start sewing pillows and a duvet cover of some sort.
Wishing: for a whimsical christmas with lots of snow fall and lots of memory making. 
Enjoying:  my family all together. I've missed these days. 
Waiting: for someone to text me back. 
Liking: All the ideas I've come up with for presents for my friends
Wondering: What it would be like to be a mama and a wife. I spend so much time with kids I have started to wonder even though working with kids has become the best form of birth control. 
Loving: New Girl as always. It's such a clever show, not going to lie definitely in love with creepy, weird Schmidt. 
Hoping: for things to always work out in a positive way
Marveling: that it's practically the end of the year and I'm a very different person. Where does the time go?
Needing:  
Smelling: cologne I found amongst my things I think it was a present for that guy I was writing once upon a time. 
Wearing: Purple jeggings, black top, and a green sweater- typical fall weather 
Following:  
Noticing: how beautiful my life is. It's a thing of beauty and it's amazing I'm still alive.
Knowing: everything will be alright in the end. 
Feeling: content. I don't feel the need to rush anything and to let life give me the things I need. 
Bookmarking: recipes because who doesn't love food. 
Opening: an old favorite book. I love reading old stuff that reminds me of old feelings. 
Giggling: at my sister Aubrie, only hilarious things come out of her mouth. 

22

Yup I finally hit Taylor Swift's Song. I am twenty-two years old and I think its weird (my parents think its weird too). And this past year alone has been insane. So many changes, a new life path, and taking new risks. I my birthday's keep getting better with age or maybe my attitude is just getting better with age. Not to mention I've had a lot of great things happen to me since moving to Pocatello. So here are 22 things I'm loving about life right now.

1-I have lost 8lbs, I wasn't heavy or anything before but I'm feeling & looking great (I'm loving the comments I get when I see people who haven't seen me in a while). I'm super excited to have a waist; I can pull of outfits I would have never dreamed of wearing before.

2-I love my job at the elementary school here in Pocatello. I love helping the kids and apparently they love me. Its a lot fun and love seeing the kids eyes light up when they final understand something.

3-My home life has been great. Better than it has been. I love that I'm able to help my parents and my siblings. Not to mention I actually get to teach piano lessons to my brothers.

4-Did I mention I live pretty close to a ton of my extended family and my amazing great aunt lives just across the golf course from me. I love getting to know my cousins and spending time with them.

5-The fact that I don't have to drive 20 minutes to get into town.

6-I love my YSA ward. The girls in my R.S. are super awesome and I just feel like their my BFFs.

7- Key Lime Cheesecake. That was my birthday treat at the Cheese Cake Factory. It was super yummy. Not to mention I loved getting whip cream all over my face.

8-Supes adorable skirt I bought myself with my birthday money. Peplum and green. ( I could never pull of a peplum anything until now). Not to mention I look pretty good in it. What girl doesn't love shopping?

9-I get to cook for my family every week. Since I hate cooking for myself cooking yummy food for other people is a lot more enjoyable for me.

10-I have my big bed back. I love sleeping on my full sized bed again. Not to mention the memory foam my parents got me. I'm kind of in love with my bed. My parents spoiled me and got me a spiffy mattress bad. I love it and most days I have a hard time leaving my bed. I've always been one to love sleep so having a comfortable place to sleep is always icing on the cake.

11-Cuddle time with the dog everyday. Phoebe loves that I'm living at home.

12-For my incredible friends near or far. I am so blessed to have so many people in my life that love me and are such strong examples in my life.

13-I'm just going to come out and say it, it's not something I necessarily love but its more of I just kind of like it. Tinder. It's been an interesting experience but it's definitely helped me get out of my shell and somewhat out of my head when it comes to guys. Plus it's kind of proven to me that guys actually do find me attractive and will make an effort to talk to me first.  But there is still an element of absolute creepy when it comes to Tinder.

14-Design, who was I kidding when I said I wasn't going to do it anymore but I think I just needed some time away to realize how much I love the process and I love making things functional while making them look good. Design isn't just how it looks but also how it works.

15-Jeggings. I love wearing skinny jeans and I also love wearing yoga leggings. So it's like the perfect combonation.

16-Lately I've been digging how I've been doing my makeup, I;m so glad I've grown in my makeup abilities and it's constantly evolving. Bareminerals have become my absolute favorite. Not to mention Ulta! Ulta is just plain spectacular.

17-Unexpected things, good or bad, they help you grow. There is a beauty in uncertainty.

18-Oh Snap Chat. I use to absolutely hate Snap Chat but it's grown on me and I have some pretty great people to send snaps to and they also send pretty ridiculous snaps back.

19- The fire place. Our family room in the house were renting is lovely, with huge windows but its so cold in there all the time. So the fire place has become a great treat.

20-My car, Louie. He's been so great and a lot more reliable than my old car Rosemary, who's still kicking!

21- For the people I have made in Pocatello. Getting myself out of the comfort zone when it comes to friends has been spectacular for me. Plus my old friends are just as amazing! So grateful for their support in my move and in my new life changes. I love all my friends grateful and I would never trade them for anything in this world.

22- I love that I am feeling happy, healthy, confident, and living my life.

Wrong Roads & Wrong Guys

I've obviously been taking a break from the blogging scene and it may continue for a long while. I've just needed to live my life without needing to plan something clever to write or brag about how great my life is; isn't a blog kind of a place where you go and brag about how great your life is sometimes. Not that its a bad thing because I love reading about family and friends who are doing great, I just needed a break from doing it about myself.

 I watched this video from Mormon Messages and I honestly couldn't help but feel like God was speaking to me today. I've been thinking a lot about choices, prayer, and personal revelation. How bad things happen and still sometimes making the wrong choice some how gets us on the right path. I've made a lot of choices about my life and trusted I was making the right one.

Just over a little bit of a year ago I started writing a boy who was serving as a companion to my roommates boyfriend. And I'm sure you read the super long, and kind of melodramatic posts of my self discovery from that relationship. And my ranting and complaining about the guy (sorry missionary guy, I've grown up since then). When I first started writing him, it was fun, it was nice to talk to someone and I was starting to emotionally invest in him. One day, after writing for about 2 months I felt I needed to pray about it because I really didn't want to continue investing in this guy if nothing was to come of it. One Sunday I felt impressed it was the right thing to do and misinterpreted that feeling as something else. And as I wrote him I continued to have the feeling and then things happened and the feeling went away and it was replaced with a new feeling, you need to break up and stop writing this guy. I was honestly confused. How could God tell me this was the right thing to do and then my own personal feelings with out his influence began to change. I prayed about if what I was feeling was right or if I just needed to buck up and be not so judgmental.  I went to the temple and I knew the feeling was right and I just needed to do it. God wasn't going to have me marry someone I didn't want to. I had a choice.

Needless to say it took more than just one email to end things and trying to be friends to finally get the message to me that yes this guy was great and it could of probably worked for us,  but I had lessons to be learned about myself in a relationship, and there was some one even better for me.

I have since learned that even though God gives us a prompting we still have a choice to follow it. I could of just stop writing that guy then and there. I probably wouldn't have learned what I needed to learn. God wouldn't have been able to shape me the way He needed to.

In regards to Elder Holland's short message sometimes getting to the right road means taking a wrong one. In "What I Wish I Knew When I Was Single: How to Life as a Young Adult" by John Bytheway (which if your single find a way to listen to it because it's so helpful) he states something that has since changed my point of view of dating in general. "Sometimes dating the wrong one is the right one to lead you to the best one." Although we may have the potential to marry a plethero of different people (I honestly don't believe in soul mates or God has already predestined you to be with someone, you do have a say in who you marry) God has you date a few wrong ones so you can make a choice without a doubt to be with one of the right ones.

We have choice and God helps us be better in our choices and to help build our trust and faith in him. God loves us so much and He wants the best for us. He is teaching us how to make correct judgements and the best choices. Just because He has us go down a few wrong roads or date a few wrong people does not mean He doesn't love us. He does those things because He loves us and He wants us to be confident when we are on the right path, road, or with the right person. Isn't it pretty great to know we have someone looking over us and wants us to trust Him.

I'm so grateful that somehow when I go down the wrong road, God somehow manages to get me to the right road.