the ugly about it all

This isn't a happy post.
I feel like crap. 

And crazy as it sounds I can't help it. 

Why thyroid! WHY!

And today I realize I'm going to have moments 

like this the rest of my life. Joy.

And the thing that scares me is I have no motivation to my homework. 

I want to crawl into my bed, cry and cry and cry, and just sleep. 

That or punch some one in the face and just completely destroy 

something with a bat or  shotgun (wow that sounds really cryptic and bad).

Since having my thyroid fix I haven't felt like this in a long time.

And I'm super frustrated because I have been taking care of myself.

During my off track I found out my thyroid problem could cause depression. 

And in my case we've always thought I've always just had anxiety which is a form of depression.
But once my thyroid was working again I was good happy and didn't need to take
medication for that. And now this. 

My thyroid is throwing me a curve ball once again. 

I'm pretty sure my levels are out of balance and its making me hate the world. 

And I have to face this the rest of my life. 

Its not going to be fixed when I snap my fingers.
Wish it was like that but its not. That's how life is. 

So if you see me, give me a hug and tell me everything will be okay.

I really I need it.