Dear Boy

Dear Boy,
The best way I can say it is I like you a lot but I
can't get myself to say that to you. I'm shy and awkward
when it comes to this sort of thing. I'm just plain
 awkward when it comes to guys; I'm pretty clueless.
 You asked me today why I don't talk to you about
"stuff", its because  you're the "stuff" I want to talk about.
I thought you were interested but now half the time
I feel like I'm getting whip lashed. I don't say anything
because I've had such bad luck in the past. I've been
burned to many times by jerks. I've jumped the gun
other times. I don't say anything because of the
friendship. You'll probably never read this and
I'm okay with it. It was just writing it out that makes
me feel relieved.
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